The City That Never Sleeps
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posted : Wednesday, October 20, 2010
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PW. FREAKING. SUCKS. It should just crash and burn and disappear into thin air yuck.

You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no one’s going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.
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^This describes my life story so damn well too. That horrible constricted feeling in our chests when we try to suppress our emotions... I wished we weren't expected to be so strong. If you're really upset, just cry k? I'd sit with you for hours until your tears dry, seriously. Sure, it's exhausting to hold on to that last bit of faith, 但黎明前夕往往最黑暗。

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Anw, she won't see this but I love that dear girl to bits who was prolly one of the very few (or even maybe the only one?) who could see that I was on the verge of crying that day. Somehow, talking to her lightened my burden a little. THANKS LOVE FOR YOUR PRAYERS, I GUESS IT WORKED <3 A friend whom I can sing freely with and also unafraid to sing with me, a friend whom I can sit in silence comfortably with, a friend whom I can talk to so easily even after barely seeing each other for months. ILOVEYOUMYDEARGIRLFRIEND <3